Friday, November 13, 2009

Happy Friday The 13th


Today started off well with me meeting with some friends of mine from church. I had a nice breakfast and interacted with a friend who really truly cares for my soul.

I then went to work and had a meltdown and a blowup at a good friend over my frustration at his frustration.  He is trying to understand and make sense of things which make no sense.  Trying to apply logic to things which have no logic.

I have given up.  I don't care anymore, I just do what they tell me to do.

So while my friend fought it out, I went over the line and said someone who I should have known wasn't wrong was wrong.  I then yelled "Who the F*** cares?"

My buddy said, "You should care."

He's right and I am an ass for not letting things go their own way.  Honestly I am just burned out which is why I had left tech support.  The frustration of trying to convey the reasons for why we are forcing technicians and salespeople to do things which make no sense just because the managers of the product decided that is how it should be done.  Of course the managers of the product don't understand how the whole process works, so they don't know better.

Of course, I am not defending them.  We have told them and were blown off as being "Scared of change."

I have given up.  I told my boss that I am here from 8 to 5 and that is it.  I don't care anymore.  There is no desire to go above and beyond because it does no good in the long run.  A prime example of this is a buddy who referenced a document concerning a product.  A decision was then made to over-ride the document and support the feature (this was in direct counter to the documentation) and my buddy was thrown under the bus and the customer was notified that "Support would be educated."

Yeah, I definitely wish I had been laid off in the last round.  Now when I go, I know there will be nothing.

Thanks for all the hard work "H" best of luck in the food services industry.


Anonymous said...

I'm sorry to hear work is getting you down. Sometimes it's very difficult to remain positive when surrounded by so much negativity. Just remember that God is there for you, and even though you may be struggling now, He will ultimately lighten your burden. Letting go of all the things we egocentrically think we control, and giving them to God, can be extremely powerful.

Change can be scary, and the thought of leaving our comfort zones can be paralyzing, but sometimes it can also be the best thing for us. Maybe it's time to amend short and long term goals to get to where you want to be, and what you need to do to get there. Mark Twain may have said it best, "Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor, catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."

You are a very intelligent, personable, hard working guy, and I have no doubt you will excel at whatever you put your heart into. Regardless if you choose to do something different, or find peace in where you are, take heed in the wise words of Confucius, "Wheresoever you go, go with all your heart."

In the interim I leave you with the following:

And why are you anxious about what to wear?
Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow;
they toil not, neither do they spin.
And yet I say to you, that even Solomon
in all his glory is not arrayed like one of these.
- Matthew 6:28-29

In His Grace,
A friend in God

Houston said...

Thank you Anonymous and thank you God. What you wrote helped more than you can imagine.

God always sends an angel to carry you in your time of need. No matter how black the darkness is there is hope.

Houston said...

Hey, wait a minute...

Anonymous, are you my Army recruiter?

Falahime said...

Dude, I'm sorry. I knew you were having a bad day but I didn't know it was *that* bad. I'm ready for things to get better for all of us. Sorry this comment is so lame--Anonymous is a hard act to follow!